Hello. My name is... And I am a ???
I am told that I need to start a blog. THAT thought scares the shit out of me. Don’t get me wrong, I love blogs. It seems I Can’t go a day or two without reading what you guys are up to. But I am soooo shy that I get blushed and butterflies just thinking of anyone reading what I write.
Intellectually I know that it is very anonymous, but still it seems like I am talking to my best friend. Which, of course, I can’t, but that is a separate subject. I also want to please everyone, all of the time. It is very hard for me to voice my opinion because I don’t want to offend anyone, either way. So basically, I stay quiet.
I also think I suck at writing. The thought that a few of you have responded to my husband’s writing is excruciatingly scary to me. But, ironically, your blogs are the reason I approached him with the idea of this lifestyle to begin with. I think I am mostly scared because all of you sound so ‘into’ it, almost professional. On the same hand, I know, technically, you guys write what you want. How am I to really know if that’s accurate or not.
Overall, this lifestyle excites me to no end. I think about it all the time. Also, it scares me to death. How do I know if I can do this? How do I know if this is what I really want or need? I’m very independent, I’ve had to be. I can be or do things that I don’t even think I can just because I have had to. What if I’m using this as an excuse not to deal with the hard things? I hope that it is not. And I don’t think that it is. I LOVE pleasing people. I go out of my way to ‘serve’ people. Whether it being working late so someone else doesn’t havet to or completely executing a perfect holiday meal for 10 – 15 people.
I want to be good at this. I want to make C. proud and also I want to make your group proud. That has always been ‘me’. Now I need to learn to let someone else call the shots every now and then. I think I will need much help and instruction on this.
It’s also scary to me because I don’t want to lose the relationship I already have. We have been through a lot together.
I guess this will be a place for me to record my accomplishments (or failures), my gripes, my triumphs, my hopes and dreams and a few (or maybe more than a few) ‘vanilla’ moments. There shall be some talk of my kid and work. I hope this doesn’t bore anyone but it’s me. My life. And if I have to tell the story then that is at least a few chapters.
Please offer me any advice (Please, Please, Please!), criticism, or support. I can use it all.
Thanks for reading.
Brightest Blessings,
lg
P.S. I am going to try to be more creative. Bear with me.
Intellectually I know that it is very anonymous, but still it seems like I am talking to my best friend. Which, of course, I can’t, but that is a separate subject. I also want to please everyone, all of the time. It is very hard for me to voice my opinion because I don’t want to offend anyone, either way. So basically, I stay quiet.
I also think I suck at writing. The thought that a few of you have responded to my husband’s writing is excruciatingly scary to me. But, ironically, your blogs are the reason I approached him with the idea of this lifestyle to begin with. I think I am mostly scared because all of you sound so ‘into’ it, almost professional. On the same hand, I know, technically, you guys write what you want. How am I to really know if that’s accurate or not.
Overall, this lifestyle excites me to no end. I think about it all the time. Also, it scares me to death. How do I know if I can do this? How do I know if this is what I really want or need? I’m very independent, I’ve had to be. I can be or do things that I don’t even think I can just because I have had to. What if I’m using this as an excuse not to deal with the hard things? I hope that it is not. And I don’t think that it is. I LOVE pleasing people. I go out of my way to ‘serve’ people. Whether it being working late so someone else doesn’t havet to or completely executing a perfect holiday meal for 10 – 15 people.
I want to be good at this. I want to make C. proud and also I want to make your group proud. That has always been ‘me’. Now I need to learn to let someone else call the shots every now and then. I think I will need much help and instruction on this.
It’s also scary to me because I don’t want to lose the relationship I already have. We have been through a lot together.
I guess this will be a place for me to record my accomplishments (or failures), my gripes, my triumphs, my hopes and dreams and a few (or maybe more than a few) ‘vanilla’ moments. There shall be some talk of my kid and work. I hope this doesn’t bore anyone but it’s me. My life. And if I have to tell the story then that is at least a few chapters.
Please offer me any advice (Please, Please, Please!), criticism, or support. I can use it all.
Thanks for reading.
Brightest Blessings,
lg
P.S. I am going to try to be more creative. Bear with me.
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